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Letter.
Darion Robinson
to Kelly Huynh
“….10 years”
I understand if you feel I never made an effort to apologize to you and may even think I hadn’t thought about you until recently.
When in fact, thinking about you had become my morning cup of coffee.
Over that time, and still to this day.
I couldn’t and still can’t escape you.
I unfollowed you because of how good you looked, yet guys would still send me your content.
I never brought up your name and pretended to have no interest, yet someone would mention every little thing you did, every achievement, every piece of news to me as if we were still together.
And I’ve always listened because, admittedly, I enjoyed hearing it. It kept me feeling a part of you.
I never truly understood how hard it was for you or what you went through and felt when I made that decision.
You were my best friend, the woman I saw myself marrying, and despite how it ended, I loved you beyond measure.
Love is one thing I will always have for you.
Even now.
But I am sorry, Kel. Truly.
The one thing I want you to understand is that you didn’t do anything wrong. You were perfect.
I can only speak from my perspective of being in a relationship with you.
And within that, you’ve always known how to properly love whoever you’ve given your heart to.
That was evident in how you devoted 100%, and more, to me even when there were other options for you.
That realization came one night around midnight, when you walked in the rain because you needed two eggs…
The same eggs you then used just to make the guy you loved brownies.
A small gesture to some, but enormous on the scale of a person’s love.
I took that for granted and at times, advantage.
What you and I shared and could have shared in the years after would have been very special. I’m not naive to that.
Admittedly still, I enjoy seeing your name when it’s messages to me. And I enjoy seeing you, even if it’s from afar.
I’m happy that you’re happy but more importantly, that you’ve found someone to make a life with.
And that’s why I think that I regret how I went about it but not the decision that was made.
We’ve both grown into some incredible people that I’m not 1000% sure we would have had to the chance to be, if not for us building separate lives.
That may be the only bright side to this.
That said, I can’t agree with you saying there’s no value in us being closer. Or even that we’re two different people with two different lives.
I think because of what we had, we share something that not many others have the chance to.
And whether you agree or not, I’ve always felt like that’s the gift and the curse of truly loving someone. It stays with you even when you think it’s gone.
At the end of the day… I don’t know how long it took for you to be okay again, but I know your journey wasn’t quick or easy.
And for that, I owe you time.
What I do know is that the woman you were before would be overly proud of the woman you are today.
Beautiful. Yeah, I saw your story…
Intelligent. You’ve always been that and your students are fortunate to have you.
A True Lover. There’s no question.
Strong-Willed. Which I admire, even when it’s not in my favor.
But above all, respectable.
I will always be here for you.
🕊️
P.S. While I respect the work you’ve put in to be who you are today, don’t let it be the reason why you feel there’s no room left in your life for me. With respect, I’ve grown, too.
